What would you do if you woke up one day to learn the past decade of your life had been a lie?
One day I woke up and that is what took place when I married a fictitious guy.
Married thirteen years you think there is no way…
Well I am proof there is and it still haunts me to this day.
Some would think I’m crazy how could I have not known.
Well when your married to a narcassist then your life becomes their own.
They suck you in promising you the moon and stars.
All the while conforming to who you want and not to who they really are.
They are so good at telling fictacious tales they believe them to be true.
Lying about everything just to sink their hook in you.
After the hook is sunk they will reel you on in.
At this point your clueless thinking this is the one to win.
You become the bait stuck inside the trap.
Now by this point there ain’t no turning back.
Soon the mask will get slowly peeled away.
Your then hit blindsided left wondering what you should do or say.
They try to convince you that you are the cause of all their actions.
All the abuse is because you didn’t act right and this is a normal reaction.
They demeanor nag and constantly put you down.
Until you believe it and are left with no self worth anywhere to be found.
Isolated, rejected, criticized, mentally, physically, emotionally.
Your no longer yourself and can’t even think rationally.
Stripped bare not from clothes, rather from feeling because the abuse leaves you numb.
Life as you knew it is gone and no longer fun.
This man you loved being replaced with a controlling abusive jealous angry and selfish person you do not know.
Deep inside you want out but hold onto the one you feel in love with and just can’t let go.
Laying awake at night silently crying for fear you will be found.
Too scared to move or breathe for fear he will hear the sound.
Praying to God to help you find the strength you need to leave..
Knowing if you don’t escape it is death that you shall receive.
The only way to break free from a narcassist is by him finding the love of another so he moves on or by death.
For if he does not find another to feed his hunger he won’t let you go so he would rather there be nothing of you left.
I was lucky he found another to keep his hunger fed.
Tossed aside as if I was trash just like that.
But I can honestly say thank you for setting me free and giving me my life back!